FF14 Drabble o7

[frozenmemories]

If anything could be said about Cirno that has never changed was how stubborn she would be about some things. It was both a good and bad habit but for this, it was very very bad. Instead of talking about what was bothering her and letting those around her reassure and banish those fears that everything they had been going through it was bottled up and pulling away. There were days the fairy refused to come out of her room or let anyone in and others that the Link-pearl was put away as she would vanish into Eorzea for days at a time.

Between everything that had happened, the betrayals, the war, the unexpected chaos and the fact she was always worried about the 'Inner Beast' that all Warriors had, Cirno was terrified. Stubbornly bottling up all that fear to put a smile on her face and pretend that nothing was wrong when she was around the others. Even though there was a slight nagging in her head that it wasn't as passable as she thought. So she would hide away, turning her lights down, locking her door and lay there thinking, trying hard not to cry or make any noise that would make everyone worry.

What if one day that 'Inner Beast' wasn't so quelled and quiet and was let loose, like what happened to Curious Gorge and not be able to stop it? Go on a rampage and hurt everyone around her? What if everything they were doing was for nothing?

If anything..there was so much raging though her head and keeping her away from the comfort and reassurance she was craving but..She just felt...alone. Even if she shouldn't feel that way. There was the overwhelming feeling of just wanting to go home. To curl up and never think about all of this again...

But for now..she'd lock the door, run away and hide and believe that she wasn't a good person and to pretend she was when that door opened.